To my teammates and all those that I have hurt in my 26 years, I need to say…
- I’m sorry for thinking I was better than you when I’m not and admire you so much and sometimes wished I was you.
- I’m sorry for not pursuing your friendship because I was jealous that you had so many more friends than me and wanted your friendship more than anything.
- I’m sorry for the hurtful words that I’ve said to you because I wanted to fit in and feel superior but I’ve regretted it every time I’ve said those words and didn’t mean any of it.
- I’m sorry for not trusting you or opening up to you because I wanted to but I don’t like to be vulnerable and I was scared I would get hurt.
- I’m sorry for gossiping about you because I was jealous of you and wanted to fit in when I really think you are great and believe you are better than what they were saying.
- I’m sorry for not helping you when you needed help because I thought your problems didn’t matter when they really do and deserve the time and effort to solve it.
- I’m sorry for talking over you, interrupting and just not listening to you when you really have great things to share and they matter and deserve to be heard.
- I’m sorry for not valuing you when you deserve to be truly valued for the amazing person God’s created you to be.
- I’m sorry for not celebrating the amazing things you have achieved or being happy for the good things that have happened to you because I was jealous.
- I’m sorry for not crying with you because I didn’t want to be vulnerable.
- I’m sorry for not laughing at your jokes because I wanted to seem superior and I was jealous everyone liked your jokes.
- I’m sorry for not joining in on your activities because I wanted to but I didn’t want to be rejected or feel left out.
- I’m sorry for blaming things on you when I was really the problem and didn’t want to admit it.
- I’m sorry for not being a good example and pressuring you to do something you didn’t want to do.
- I’m sorry for pretending I’ve got it all together when I really don’t and struggle with so many things.
- I’m sorry for acting like I know it all when I really don’t and want to learn more from you.
- I’m sorry for ignoring you when I really wanted to talk to you and sort out our issues.
- I’m sorry for arguing with you about useless stuff because I wanted to prove that I was right when in fact, no one was right and our friendship is worth more than getting into an argument.
- I’m sorry for my inability to forgive because I wanted to make you feel guilty when I was feeling guilty about my inability to forgive.
- I’m sorry for thinking I didn’t need you in my life when you make me into a better person.
- I’m sorry for my assumptions about your character when I don’t even know you or tried to hear your story but I would really like to.
- I’m sorry for judging you and thinking you needed to change when I needed to change.
- I’m sorry for not accepting and returning your love because you deserve to be loved.
- I’m sorry for not practising what I preach and not representing Jesus as who He really is.
I’ve finally recognised my prideful and hard heart has affected our relationship and I’m truly sorry. I wish I could redo all my mistakes but I can’t. All I can do is say I’m sorry and I hope you can forgive me. I am taking steps to restore our relationship and if you are someone that is struggling to forgive me, please talk to me. I want to love you well and pursue your friendship because I want to and Jesus said, you deserve to be pursued.
