As I look back at my life at home I sit and remember when I had control of things. I did not let people tell me how to live my life. I did not listen to other people when it came to dealing with a personal situation. I wanted full control of my life so I could say if something went wrong it would be completely my fault. Being the only child I tend to want control over most things. When I was younger I had control of the radio station in the car even though I was 8. Now I still have control of the radio because I am the driver. When I had friends over to play I would be in control because it was my house. When I would go to their house I would have control because I was the guest. It is funny but quite unfair. Would you say control freak?
Control freak.
Where does this control come from? Anxiety.
Cast all your anxiety on the Lord. 1 Peter 5:6-7 says " Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."
As I sit back and look at the situation I am in now I see I have no control.
None. No. Control.
Sarah has no control.
I do not have control of where my location is this month. But I know this is where God wants me. I am totally fine with it and love it.
I have no control over the type of water I get to drink this month. But I know God will protect me.
I have no control over what foods I eat for lunch and dinner. But I eat it because that is all there is.
I have no control of being an hour away from internet by bike ride. But I have become closer to God and my team mates because of this.
I have no control over not being home for Christmas. But I will be doing God's work on Christmas. Next Christmas I will be wit family.
I have no control over the kids in the village wearing the same clothes everyday. But I can use some ministry money and pray for cleaner clothes.
I have no control over families in the village being Bhuddist. I can teach the children and new generation about God. Prayer works wonders.
I have no control of what is going to happen after the race. But I know who I have become from this experience and there are great things to come.
No. Control.
So if I do not have control then who does?
God.
Why would this be so hard for me to grasp this concept?
Because I was once a control freak.
As room mates are here loosing things, having purses and belongings stolen and their things are breaking I can not help but be blessed. By the grace of God I have not had to endure such things.
2 Cor. 9:8 "God is able to make all grace abound in you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.
I have all that I need.
I have water.
I have food.
I have access to internet.
I have a heart for kids to help make a change.
I have a family at home that will welcome me home any Christmas and I will be spending it at home next year.
I have an opportunity to share about God to the kids in the village.
I have all that I need.
And no I have no idea or control of what will happen after the race but where does control and anxiety get me? No where.
With trying to have control and having anxiety you are saying that you do not trust the Lord. Wow. Harsh right?!
Prov 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make paths straight"
—— God, I give you full control of my life. When I go into a mode of self-control remind me who you are. Remind me everything you have done for me when I was not in control. Remind me where I have come from and who I am now. God, I pray to you that when things are hard and I want to go in reverse to gain back control or down a hill to gain speed of my life that you stop the anxiety that comes with the control. In Jesus name I stop the anxiety that overwhelms people in a controlling society. I pray for those out there today who seem to have lost who is in control of their lives. God, I pray that you also remind them of the protection you have on their heart and current situations. That nothing bad can happen when you are fully trusted. And God we may not always agree with you, but with the grace and reassurance you have promised us; I pray that we use the judgement that you created us with to let us loose control of our once control freak situations.– Amen.—-
No one is in control but God. You might be confused of who is actually in the drivers seat.
