I had a conversation with Robby, our squad leader who is on
his way out after this month, and he pointed out to me that the woman he met at
the beginning of the Race is no longer who he sees when he looks at me. I have realized that the JOY that used to
radiate from me month 1 has gone into hiding.
I’m not ok with that. So over the
last week I have been discussing with my team and with Spirit ROAR how to unlock
that joy once again!
I desperately want to be that person that joy radiates out
of whenever people are around me. I want
to influence and shift atmospheres with my joy!
And I know that true joy only comes from my Father! It’s always inside me, always available, but
over the last 3 months I have allowed my surroundings to affect my joy and to
send it running for the hills.
I am easily affected by negativity, as I have stated time
and time again. When I am in the midst
of negativity, I feed off of it and let it control my joy and my attitude. Well, I DO NOT DESIRE THAT FOR MYSELF and
neither does God. My loving Father
desires joy, love, positive community and comfort for me. He wants me to bask in the glory of His true
joy, the joy that He Himself has placed inside my heart that no one can take
away. And I am thankful that He has
surrounded me this month with teams that are walking boldly in this pure joy
from the Holy Spirit! God knows that
sometimes (ok, most times) I just need a little prodding to be able to walk in
all the goodness He has for me and Spirit ROAR and Living Faith are certainly
the perfect people to help prod me along!
So that’s currently where I am…God and I are in the process
of re-unlocking my Holy Spirit joy, my unconditional joy, my pure joy, my
biblical joy, my heart joy, my heavenly joy!
The joy that comes only from my wonderful Father.
