I am a very involved youth leader at my church, and I love it with all my heart. I help out in our Wednesday night service, help run the junior high student leadership team, help run three junior high weekend services, and still jump at any other opportunity to help with the youth group. I do this all on top of working a full time job. I’m not saying these things to brag, but to show you my heart for serving and for the youth. Recently I have felt overlooked and useless as a leader. I’ve been seeing flaws in things and taking it to heart, thinking it’s my fault that I can’t fix it. Needless to say it’s extremely over whelming. It wasn’t soon after this happened that I realized all the things I was thinking and feeling were attacks from the enemy. So I took it to God and thought everything was better, but I was still holding on. I thought that I could keep it all in so no one would notice, but I was unsuccessful in it. Then again I am really easy to read, and the world’s worst liar. It was becoming so noticeable that others started confronting me about it, asking if everything was okay. I would just say yes I am just tired, and go on with a smile on my face, but I wasn’t fine.
One of my friends noticed what was going on and decided to have a chat with me. She and I are very alike in how we process things. She would ask how I felt about something and say, do you see what the devil is doing? I was shocked to how much I let the lies of the enemy come in and pollute my mind. God used her in that moment to open my eyes. By the end of the conversation I felt better, but I was frustrated that I let the devil come into my head that much. See could see the frustration and just encouraged me. I left her house with a weight lifted off my shoulders.
As I was getting ready to go over a bible study with the Jr. High student leadership team, one scripture stuck out to me. It really spoke to me and encouraged me not to give up on the things the Lord has placed me to do. Not to grow weary or in my case overwhelmed, no matter what was going on. God was defiantly speaking to me through his word.
Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap. For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. So then, as we have opportunity, let us do good to everyone, and especially to those who are of the household of faith
-Galatians 6:7-10
Yes these past couple weeks have been stressful and annoying, but God has showed me to never give up and always lean on him. He will be there to be my comforter even if it means speaking through others. With the attacks that come against us we can either let the devils weak attempts overtake us, or we can seek God for his guidance, because with God all things are possible.
