As I sat down in front of my computer today at my favorite coffee shop I had every intention to write a blog about this next season of squad leading I am walking into. Going through the details of the whole process starting from month 2 of my race all the way until now. However as I sit in the same spot I occupy every time I come to this coffee shop something hit me. Something profound. Something so beautiful it almost brings me to tears. Something that couldn’t be passed up.
As I sat in front of the window seat that has a view of a beautifully crafted courthouse and stone arch down the street I started to sip on my dry cappuccino. I stared out the window at the gloomy day with a steady but gentle rain that made the visibility so crisp and clear. Rain attaching itself to the window. Outside despite the rain the world is still so full of movement. The traffic lights changing every 30 seconds or so. Cars passing by, but never the same one. Couples sharing the limited space under an umbrella enjoying the day regardless of the weather. As I continued to admire the movement and beauty outside I proceeded to drink my cappuccino. Full of the perfect combination of foam and bitterness. In that moment I heard the Lord say “breathe me in. “ Taking in a deeper breath the smell of espresso and laundry detergent linger in my nostrils. The combination oddly brought comfort that I haven’t felt in what seems a lifetime. Peace that made me not want to get up from where I was sitting. Joy that made no sense. Love so deep that I had no idea I was capable of experiencing.
“Let me pursue you. Romance you. Love you.”
The Lord wants to romance me so much that He strategically placed all those I experienced in that moment. It wasn’t one giant thing, but a handful of small intentional things.
I think it is easy for me to overlook what the Lord is trying to do because I am too worried about making it to the destination and not experiencing the journey. When in fact it is the journey that brings more perspective, depth, and experience to the whole thing. The so called “minor” parts add up. But I so quickly look over the small gifts in front of me to lock my eyes on the prize that is still so far away. And in the midst of overlooking the small things I am missing the romance, and love I long for that Papa is placing right in front of me.
So I guess the whole point of this is a reminder of allowing the Lord to do what He wants when He wants. My plans to write a blog about squad leading was put on hold because Papa had something bigger for me on a random Tuesday morning.
Slow down and let Papa take the lead. It’s always worth it.
