I like honesty, so I am going to be honest.
This World Race thing is dang hard.
Coming into it I knew I would be stretched, tested, and put in a lot of situations of discomfort, but I didn’t know to what capacity. It took me by surprise, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. Stretching and discomfort means you have the opportunity to grow. You can either lean on your on strength and grow more to your flesh, or you can lean on the Lord and grow more with Him. Sometimes leaning on your own strength seems to be the easiest answer, but I didn’t go on this trip for easy. The Lord hasn’t called us to an easy life, but he has called us to a life full of him and his promises, which I will do whatever it takes to live that life for him.
Nepal is AMAZING! The people, culture, and landscape are beautiful reminders of God and his beauty. Although I am falling in love with Nepal more and more each second, this month has been full of attacks, struggles, physical sickness, homesickness, and earthquakes. God continues to show me things he wants to strip me of that I never knew I was still holding onto. Needless to say this month was about trusting him fully in His strength not mine.
Almost everyday before we adventure off to ministry we have a silent time before the Lord called Amad. Amad is a time where it’s just you and the Lord in whatever way that looks like to you. It usually last for about an hour. At first I wasn’t sure how I would survive being quiet and focused for an hour, but now I feel like an hour isn’t enough. One day during Amad I was talking to the Lord about the struggles and attacks I was facing. I was telling him “Lord I can’t do this by myself, but I know I can get through this with you. Continue to show me, guide me, and teach me what to do.” He told me to turn to a Psalm that wasn’t actually there. Confused on why he would tell me a verse that wasn’t in that chapter I scanned the pages I was opened to. Bam! It was like Psalm 91 was lit up, so my attention immediately went to it. It was exactly what I needed to hear right at that moment. I was so excited by the goodness of the words I was reading that I had to stop myself from underlining the whole chapter. As I came to the end of the chapter the Lord told me to reread verses 14-16. He said “This time put your name in place of he.”
So it reads like this:
“Because Sara holds fast to me in love, I will deliver her; I will protect Sara because she knows my name. When Sara calls to me I will answer her; I will be with Sara in trouble; I will rescue Sara and honor her. With long life I will satisfy Sara and show her my salvation.”
God, the creator of Earth, the same God who breathed life into all the animals and humans, the same God that created mountains that stretch into the sky, and seas that reach depths so deep promises that to me! Not only to me but to all of us! How profound and amazing is that! The more I give myself to him, and let him in, the more I am in awe of his goodness.
Throughout this month I have continued to flip my bible open to that scripture. Actually, I have been on that page so much that my bible opens right to it. Each time I read it I fall more in love my my Heavenly Father.
Yes, this month has been hard, but he continues to so me his love in ways I never expected. From amazing news back home to seeing Mt. Everest with some of my sisters, the Lord keeps blessing me!
He is such a good, good Father.
