Hey everyone!
This past week was a week full of pain and growth for me. I was stretched and refined in new ways, and despite the discomfort, I was enjoying every second of it because I knew it was drawing me closer to the Lord and making me depend more on Him. I also appreciated the wisdom from my Dad in a letter he wrote me where he encouraged me to seek joy and enjoyment not just during the fun days, but during the rough times. So that's what I did.
Halfway through the week I started having painful stomach cramps and then on Thursday evening it all went down from there. I'll leave out the details, but I would like to share one of my journal entries with yall from the week. Here's a peak into my heart and into my intimate time with the Lord. Thanks for going on this journey with me and for supporting me in every aspect.
"11:30am July 27, 2013
God, you are so great. And I'm crying with joy that I'm at a place where after just going diarrhea for the 19th time in less than 24 hours I can say that and believe it with every fiber in my body. You are so great and I love you so much. You have a perfect plan for my life and I'm so thankful for that. Thank you for loving me and for choosing me.
Thank you for seeing me as beautiful even when I don't. Thank you for reminding me of my identity and who I am in you. You have drawn me with loving kindness and you love me with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3). Thank you God for your kindness and tender heart towards me. Thank you for moments of humility in the form of extreme diarrhea. Thank you for grace, laughter, and sweet racemates who come over and sit with me outside the bathroom just to hug on me and give me encouragement.
Thank you for this season of my life where you're drawing me closer to your heart and who you are as a Father. Thank you for revealing your heart to me on deeper levels. God, I'm falling so in love with you and I'm loving every second of it."
