Dear Depression,
It’s been about three years now since we first met. Im not really sure why I let you creep back in so many times over those three years but I did. You made these last three years hell for me. Our relationship has never been healthy and it just created a burden on my shoulders I didn’t need. Im tired of you constantly taking control of my life and making it near impossible to live a decent life. You somehow managed to manipulate me whenever you wanted and I’m done. I’m done letting that happen. I’m done letting you get your way whenever you please.
Not only did you impact me but you impacted everyone around me. I wasn’t able to have any healthy relationships because of you. The amount of pain you put me and everyone close to me through was not okay. You put lies in my head that seemed so real and frankly, I’m surprised I didn’t act on them. You made me feel like I wasn’t worth living. You made me feel unwanted. You made me feel like it was me versus the world and that I had no one. I know now that all those negative thoughts you flooded my mind with were lies. I know now that it’s not me versus the world but instead it’s me, family, friends, and most importantly God versus the world. I have so much to live for! And you want to know why that is? It’s because i’m a child of the Man upstairs. I was made in His image and I am beautifully and wonderfully made. Isn’t that cool? I think it is.
So depression, I think I made my point pretty clear but if not here it is again. We are done. Our so called “relationship” is over. You no longer have any power over me. You’re just a memory now and I couldn’t be more happy saying that. With all that said, cya. It wasn’t nice knowing you.
Sam
