There are 3 times this past month I felt unprepared for what God had for me to do, and yet something amazing came out of it when I did it…
We were taking to one of the women at the home we stayed at and she revealed that she had not yet forgiven the man who hurt her. A team mate mentioned one of us guys possibly “standing in the gap”. I think somehow I knew I was going to be elected (which I was). I had never done anything like it before so I didn’t know what to expect. I stood in front of her and she talked to me like I was the man who hurt her. I said just a few words and she forgave me (Him). It was such a powerful moment for her and everyone who witnessed… the woman said she felt free and at peace… and yet I stood there feeling like I didn’t do anything.
Another woman had mentioned that her care taker has had some paralysis for 7 years and asked if we could pray for her. We asked if we could visit this woman someday to pray for her in person and she said yes. One day, in the middle of our ‘team time’, we were unexpectedly asked if we would go to the house to pray. We went, though honestly I went because we told her we would. I wasn’t really feeling “spiritual” at the moment and on the way there. When we got there we prayed for the woman with paralysis. The Holy Spirit was definitely in the midst. After the prayer, 3 of us felt that God wanted to/did heal her. I thought it wasn’t coincidence that the whole morning the common theme that kept coming up was that God hears our prayers. Unfortunately one of us lacked the faith to tell her to stand, one person was unsure of what they were thinking was really from God, and I was waiting for the perfect moment that never came 🙁 Though we were bummed about that we were still in awe that the 3 of us had that on our hearts (which we didn’t know until after talking about it. I thought maybe it was only me that God was talking to)
The last week of our ministry we planned a day to speak to all the women at once about their worth, about forgiveness, and we also planned to wash their feet. That morning I felt so unprepared for my segment of speaking. But I kept saying to God, “when I am weak, You are strong.” When the time came, I spoke and everyone said I did such a great job. Again, I didn’t think I did that much.
When God leads you to do something, you just need to do it – no matter how you feel at the time. He will always do more than you might think 😀
