I struggled for a long time wondering in my defeat where God was. I was so caught up with what the world was saying, I lost myself. I went through each day wondering what my purpose was. I was surrounded by sin and if I am being honest, I didn’t think it was bad. I thought I knew who God was, but I didn’t really know him. God was still speaking to me in that time of deception, but it was short and infrequent. I would go months without writing in my journal. God taught me something in the waiting. I realized no matter how much I wanted freedom from sin God had the perfect time to set me free. Now as i’m sitting here typing this blog I am reminded that God had a specific date for me. On January 7, 2020 I was set free from bondage. The deception left like a veil being removed from my eyes. For the first time I could see clearly and I could hear God speak like a clear whisper. When he spoke he had a verse for me. The verse is Psalm 139:1, “O Lord you have searched me and known me.”. He was saying that it didn’t matter if I was sitting in the filth of sin, he was always sitting right next to me. God knew me. He saw who I was and who’d I’d become. He knew the process, and he knew the outcome. He knows who we are, what we’ve done, and who we will become in the end. I didn’t think I could’ve been saved. I was ready spend the rest of my life content with mediocrity. Then out of nowhere the one who saves, saved me. In my new found freedom I began to realize what my true calling was. Apparently I have known since third grade, when I’d write in the back of my planner “I want to be a missionary.”. The thing is though, third grade me had no idea what a missionary was. My third grade definition was someone who travelled the world to do good. Now as I sit here thinking about it, it’s not that different from the actual definition, which is “someone who travels to a foreign land to speak the gospel to those who don’t know it.”. I’ve been asked on multiple occasions what my dream job would be and I would want to be a multi-linguist (someone who speaks multiple languages) who travels the world sharing the gospel to those who need to hear truth and be set free like I am set free. I am so beyond blessed to have a way to channel this passion through an actual mission trip to Ghana, Africa! I’ll be able to minister to kids who were in human trafficking and orphaned. These kids need so much love and compassion and I can’t wait to give them just that. The reason why I am so attached to the idea of helping children who were trafficked and orphaned is because I have a heart for adoption and restoration. When I am older and married I’d love to adopt a multitude of children whether they are infants or older teenagers. All kids deserve to have parents who will love and support them, and that’s what I want to be. As always a mission trip requires fundraising and sometimes that process is grueling and other times it is a joy, but as always it is a process God has set up for a lesson he is trying to teach you. As of right now I am at 560 dollars toward my goal of 4,550 dollars to go on this amazing life changing trip God has laid out for me. So if you are interested PLEASE feel free to donate toward my trip to Ghana! If you have any questions please feel free to comment on this blog or email me at “[email protected]” I would love to hear from you all! Thank you all for your amazing support I truly wouldn’t be able to do this without you!
Blessings,
Samuel Medcalf
