7 months ago I heard my father for the first time, all he said was “ be still, say nothing, turn back and come home” this voice was audible, peaceful and for some reason the voice felt so familiar, later on the lord revealed it to me that he knew me before I was conceived in my mother’s womb and before the creation of heavens and the earth. He spoke to me when I was standing in front of a undercover cop and I was about to get in some deep trouble. I kept my mouth shut, quit my job and went home.
Everything started to change; when I smoked marijuana again it wasn’t the same I started to get severe headaches and just started to hate the feeling. I flushed the rest of whatever I had left never felt the need to smoke but I did smoke once after.
Talked to my cousins about my struggles, they just thought I was crazy suicidal heart broken drug addict. My parents came to know they just were in shock that their son who had been a church going kid was into drugs women and so on. By this time I had enough of it, I would be sleepless roaming around inside my house at 2 am having no sleep. One day I heard the voice again and he said “I am the only one you got” that’s when my Sunday school classes, the bits and pieces of songs that I remembered made sense like Jesus loves me this I know for the bible tells me so. At this point I just fell to my knees in my room and accepted the lord as my savior and lord of my life. I had so much peace and comfort at this point, some days later I saw the lord’s right hand that were pierced for me. Shared that with my parents the next day and they were overcome with so much joy.
My sister got me signed up to go for a ICPF youth camp, the theme was renew and restore and I had no idea what was waiting for me. From the time I walked into the hall I felt the presence of Jesus. The 4-day camp ended, felt great made couple of new friends and was on my way back to youth camp drop of my sister at school, we talked about things we learned and the presence of the lord. Dropped her she gave me her iPod since I did not have any Christian music. She held my hand and she prayed and I was so numb I could not move from my seat, I was scared, excited, and jealous. I wanted what she had. So after while she told me about how she had felt the same some time before when Lamar and Jeremiah (alumni world racers) had prayed for her on new years eve and she couldn’t even worship.
We said our goodbyes and I was about to start driving that’s when the lord reminded me of the prayer the pastor asked to pray if anyone could bunch up enough courage “ Lord if your love is real come into my heart”. I prayed this prayer and took the first right into the highway and I felt something just filled up my car it was thick as water and as powerful as electricity. I felt all that power or Holy Spirit of God just came into me and I was so filled with joy that I couldn’t think, for 4 hours I was experiencing the love of the father like never before it was amazing he answered the question is there a real God?? And filled me with his love when the world saw me unworthy the maker of heaven calls me his son. His love is more real than the ground we stand on and he is closer than my skin; he is funny, awesome in power and he is my Father. He is yours too!!
