The first part of this blog is quoted from my journal:
Monday September 23rd
Something was just laid on my heart and it’s weighing heavy on me. I feel a spirit of sorrow for people back home. I long to be with them and it’s overwhelming so I wanna pray it away. I also just pray for the people back home and myself that you would allow me to remain in you and my mind to be here. I devote this time to you once again. I still feel a spirit of sorrow for people back home and I pray for it to leave this place. I pray against this and pray that you would protect my mind. (Just a little context; here in Thailand, spiritual warfare attacks your mind. You think one small thing and somehow it turns into a feeling of loneliness or doubt so I wanted to pray this thought away. I am learning to take every thought captive and if it is one that can lead to a spiral of bad thoughts, I throw it away). I pray that you would focus my mind on Heavenly things. Thank you for laying this on my heart to be prayed for. (Some more time with Jesus and some more prayers) While worshiping just now, I got a vision of an angel coming behind one of my teammates who had her hands lifted in praise. The angel lifted her wings up beside my teammate who was representing our team. The angel was lifting her wings up over Thailand, declaring praises and promises for the people and the country of Thailand. I joined in with these declarations. I declared hope, peace, redemption, and freedom over Thailand. God just spoke and said, “the people of Thailand long for me and they do not know who I am still though, I are holding onto them” He then revealed to me that the sorrow I felt this morning was a glimpse of how He feels for His children and His people. I miss people from back home that I held close and could speak to and talk to each day. I longed to see them again because I had already experienced what life is like with them. God, you miss your children and you want them to come back to you. You’ve lived with them and you know them intimately and you miss them. You are wild for your people.
Something to pray for:
Our days are long here. We get up at 6:30 and have something to do from then until late at night, sometimes 7pm and sometimes closer to 9pm. God has shown me so many times that this is the place where I am meant to be for this moment and I am so thankful for His plans for me. I would love for you to join me in prayer for rest.
