It is currently 2:08 a.m. and I just had a much needed quiet time. I spent most of the time writing down words I felt the Lord speaking to me, and the phrase that stuck out most was “do not be afraid”.
When I first got home from training camp, I was so excited to leave for India. Now that it is 35 days away, it is really starting to stress me out. I’ve constantly been worried about missing out on major events back home, such as holidays, birthdays, and graduations. I’ve also been so consumed with the thought of someone passing while I’m gone and not being able to say final words to them. There are so many other thoughts that are constantly running through my head that I get so distracted by what is actually important. That is what God is saying to me. I haven’t been able to hear HIM because I haven’t given up time to stop myself for a second to just listen to what He’s saying.
I’m sitting in my bed, journal open, and the Lord said, “do not be afraid”. I felt this huge weight be lifted off my shoulders. He reminded me that HE HAS THIS. The Lord knows what He’s doing, and I need to give control over to Him. I try to control too much of my life and hold onto things that I need to give up. I need to stop thinking I know what’s best for me when really, He does. I am done living that way. I want the Lord to have full control of my life, and I want to live fully for Him and for the purpose of bringing people to Christ.
My thoughts in this blog post are kind of all over the place, but I think y’all get the point :). I finally got around to posting a blog since I haven’t in forever, so here it is! Please join me on my journey by subscribing to receive notifications about future blog posts, and please continue praying for my team as we leave really soon!
