Hey everyone..
honestly this is a blog I never thought I would write.
I never thought I would be sitting here telling you that….
I am no longer going on the World Race.
Let me start from the beginning.
On July 6th I landed in Atlanta, Georgia for training camp. As most of you know I was SO excited for this chapter in my life, but the second I stepped on the Adventures in Missions property something changed.
I became overwhelmed with emotions & feeling I have NEVER experienced before. Still to this very moment I can’t even comprehend all that I felt. Maybe it was the fact I’d finally came to terms that I’d be gone for 9 months & was not ready for that or maybe it was the thought of living with strangers for an extended period of time. I really have no idea. All I know is these feelings come out of nowhere.
So, as I laid in my tent that first night of training camp my heart broke because I knew this wasn’t where I was suppose to be. I decided to give it 2 more days to see if the feelings I was having were going to be subside or not but they didn’t.
I tried to pray & ask God what was going on. I heard nothing. I watched everyone worship & rejoice in the Lord & all he was blessing them with & I couldn’t connect. This was beyond weird to me. Worship is my thing & all the time when I pray & ask God to show me things or speak to me He answers even if it’s not what I want to hear he tells me. So I struggled with these things for days trying to figure out what was going on & where it all went wrong.
By day 3 I felt the Lord finally speaking to me. He was telling that no matter where I go or what I choose, He has an AMAZING plan for me & that He loves me unconditionally. Once I finally received peace & clarity I realized it was now my choice to choose to stay at training camp with my squad & see if there was potential for me to continue on or head home. Now most of you probably think I took the easy route by heading home, but let me tell you, this was one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make.
I felt at peace once I chose to pack my bags & see what else God could have for me. I felt as though no matter where I am He will be by my side, pushing me, loving me & showing me where I’m suppose to be.
I wish I could better explain to you the thing that went on those 4 days at training camp, but I can’t. I just need you to love me & support me in this difficult time & know I am only doing what I believe is the right thing.
The World Race may not have been what the Lord was exactly calling me to, but I know there’s something else that is.
So what’s next you may ask?
Well I know the Lord has placed missions on my heart for a reason so for all of you who have financially supported me, you’ll be glad to know that money is going to be used for another trip I am going to take! I have applied for a Passport trip (for college aged students) which is 3 months,through Adventures in Missions! I will know in a few weeks if I have been accepted & since you have all been so generous with donations, when I am officially accepted to the trip I will be
FULLY FUNDED!!!! HOW AWESOME!!!! So from here on out I will only be needing prayerful support!! I will then be able to reveal to you where I have been lead to share the Lord & bring the kingdom once I receive word on my acceptance! Please be patient with me in this time of transition & unknown things.
I trust that the Lord is taking where I need to be & He will use me in new ways with this new trip!
This is a lot to comprehend & try to figure out so if you have any questions I would love to chat & answer any questions or concerns!
Thank you for your understanding & your love!!
with love,
Sami
