*** Warning this is about to get real***
**Last chance to stop reading**
*You have been warned*
Today is suppose to be _____________ (fill in the blank). I find myself wrestling with this statement on so many levels. Today is suppose to be fun, lighthearted, relaxing, focusing on Jesus (I mean everyday should be) but, today especially. But with every effort I make to relax and rest in Jesus I am met with the opposite. I even tried a cheap massage to help relieve some tension. Today, our day of rest, we had to move rooms and the wifi sucks. Even in my attempt to find good wifi, I can’t get it to connect. And today I am really missing home. I miss my sisters and their perfect, unique laughs and crazy ideas. I miss my daddy and my sweet talks with my mama. I miss the softness of my grandma and the little tough love from my pappy. I miss my pastors and the wisdom they walk in. I miss my friends and our coffee dates. I miss all the sweet little kiddos from home who have made such a huge impact in my life. I miss my church family, my biological family, and my adopted family members and their never ending love and support. I miss the easiness of back home. I really just miss home.
At the same time I am frustrated with missing home. Simple because it hasn’t even been a month. The coffee shop is playing “see you again” (fast and furious 7), I am crying (I mean ugly crying) in public, and as all these little frustrations are building my music changes to Kari Jobe, “Speak to me.” Okay, okay Jesus I hear you I am listening.
One of the biggest lessons that I have learned and I am still learning is to answer, “Is Jesus enough?” My team and I had an opportunity to play soccer at an orphanage and to love on some missionaries from the Philippines (they loved on us quite a bit too). But what if we do not have any more opportunities like that for the next 10 months. Am I okay with it? I don’t think I have an answer to that at the moment but I am working on Jesus being enough. I simply want to be with Jesus every step of every day.
Instead of making the statement, “today is suppose to be _________” I simply need to ask myself, “Is Jesus enough?”
Prayer Warriors Assemble (PWA)
– Please pray for my lower back. I am not sure what I did but I simple do not have time for this.
– Also pray for peace and direction (because you can never have to much of either of those)
Know that you are loved!!!! <3
