Leaving a season of waiting is not all sunshine and rainbows. I guess I had this idea that when God finally pulled me out of the desert that we would just be floating through the clouds. To be honest the battle has been intense. When the enemy realizes that he is about to lose (again) he comes at you in all different ways. Not only does he attack me personally but every member of my family in some way. It has been such a battle of emotion, that I do not even know what I am suppose to be feeling. Every day I have had to take captive my thoughts and hold them to the flame to make sure that only God’s truth remains.
This is all part of leaving that season of waiting. There is more to be learned rather than rushing into the next season. All of the things that I learned during my season of waiting are being tested. In James 1:2-4 it says, “ Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be prefect and complete, needing nothing.”
Part of me was expecting the same kind of emotion that I experienced when I went to Africa. This is a much different trip but there is no doubt that this is what I am called to do. This trip requires more; more preparation, more time, and more money. There is more at stake but not just for me, for God too. I am so thankful that it doesn’t work out the way I think it should because every time He does it, His way it’s better than I could have imagined. The battle has been waged but the victory has already been won. That is where I find peace.
