So many emotions. The excitement and expectation of Thailand are so overpowering. And yet the people and the places we went in Cambodia pull at my heart. The smiling kids who couldn’t wait to speak English with you and the moms, who made the best smoothies, looking forward to seeing you everyday. Those are the people I’m going to miss. Those are the moments that I am going to hold onto tightly. Waking up this morning had me missing my coconut waffles. At the moment I could really go for an avocado coconut smoothie. To the travelers we met along the way, know that you made an impact on my life, you inspire me. My prayer is that I had an impact on you. My prayer is that you were able to see a little bit of Jesus through my life. Cambodia you hold a piece of my heart that I didn’t expect to give. But I couldn’t image giving it any other way.
Back at training camp we had the privilege of being prayed over by our coaches. I’ve been trying to process what was spoken. Part of the word spoken over me was that my heart would increase in size. Just like in Grinch’s heart grows three sizes that was what was being seen in my life. That God was positioning me for my heart to grow. Meanwhile, during training camp I was always crying. They weren’t tears of sadness but tears because of what God was doing in the lives of my squad and in my life. It was normal for me to put a guard around my heart but being part of a team means that you have to let them in. It means you have to let other see you. And that right there is a very uncomfortable thing!
With every step I take and with every choice I make I want it to be done in love. I want others to know Jesus and the love he has for them through my actions. That my life would be a reflection of Jesus! In psalm 22: 14b it says, “My heart has turned to wax; it has melted within me.” That is where I want to be. I want my heart to be poured out so that only God can fill it.
Thailand, I has been less than 24 hours and already you have shown me you are so different from Cambodia. I am so expectant for what the Lord is going to do here both in and through my squad and for my team.
Team Deep, it’s about to go down!
Let’s go adventure together <3
