I feel like I am in a spot of being unable to formulate accurate words for how I am feeling & the ways God is growing me & all the things He is teaching me, sooo I will ramble on.
Leaving Indonesia feels kind of surreal. Time flieesssss fast people. The people were without a doubt the sweetest part. I feel as though God was just gently holding my hand & sitting with me this month. In fear, joy, doubt, confusion, growth, sorrow, & all the emotions, there was such a consistency & gentleness in the ways He just sat with me. I am thankful for the hearts of people in Bali & how they love so selflessly. They portray so similarly the character of Jesus, yet without knowing him. My prayer continues to be that us girls were able to plant seeds in this village & country. I believe God used us for so much good & His heart is longing for his people in Indonesia to know him!
These are characteristics of God that I have learned on a deeper level this month:
steadfast, consistent, intimate, intentional, & protector. I love getting to experience God through visions & images. It is totally He speaks to me & how I feel connected to Him & is constant proof to me of his presence. Starting from day 1 until our last night sleeping outside.. on the floor.. in our tents.. with the bugs.. in the village – I would ask God for protection over us & He would show me the coolest & biggest bubble of protection surrounding the entire space we were sleeping (picture Sandy Cheeks home..ish haha). Sometimes I would feel fear creep in & I would say “hey God, is it still there?” & of course, He would show me it was still there. As strong & sturdy as ever. Ah sweet! I love that God gets to be our protector.
This is kinda where I am at,
Sometimes you just want to shout it from an actual rooftop or into a megaphone while standing on the tallest mountain in a city how GOOD God is!!! Sometimes there’s just no social media platform or conversation on the phone or in person or humanely possible way to express or explain the way your heart can be moved by God & all the things your brain is processing. & that is why I think God is so sweet. He is unexplainably wonderful, incomparable to literally anything else that gives life, dwelling in the depths of your entire being & completely renews & transforms the hearts of his beloved children that he SOOO deeply delights in & cares for. God is so good, it’s crazy. It makes no sense. It’s a gift to love & be loved by him, & I do nothing to deserve it BUT HAVE IT ANYWAY & always. I want the whole world to know & experience Him like I get to. Plus more than that, because there’s just no limit. Dang
Thanks to you all for following along!
Lots & lots of love!!
Samantha
Xoxo
