Everyone has a unique story about how they were saved by the Lord. For some it happened over time, some they grew up in a Christian enviroment and for some their faith changed drastically. In my case, my relationship with our Father went from zero to one hundred very quickly. For a while it was hard and awkward to talk about and I never knew how to put it into words. Now i’m ready to try.
I was raised in a Christian household, we would attend church on most Sundays and Wednesdays. I had always believed God was there and I would go to heaven, but never had a true understanding on who he was. As I grew up, I stopped going to church and I put no effort into building a relationship with him. Then came this one week, a week in late September of 2016. I don’t think that week could’ve gone any worse. So many drastic things changed in my life in such a short period of time. I started questioning and doubting. How could there be a God when all of this happened? Why would he let these things happen to me and the people around me? Every ounce of my faith was gone. I wholeheartedly did not think he existed and was so unbelievably close-minded to the thought of him. I had so many questions and no answers.
I went on with my life and tried to heal. I had an amazing community around me, but still felt sad. I felt like there was something missing. I was unhappy even though I had no reason to be. My friends invited me to church, but I kept finding excuses not to go. The thought of going to church with the way I believed felt disrespectful. They knew how I felt but continued to invite me anyway. One day I just decided to go and I joined one of best friends for youth at her church. The message was great and it was something I really needed to hear. So I started to go weekly, I enjoyed the community and I felt at peace with the messages being thrown my way. Her church soon became my church and I began to look forward to going every week. I don’t know when and I don’t know how, but something clicked one day. I KNEW and FELT that God was there. I knew he was chasing me and that he loved me unconditionally. I started to pray more and more, and began to see him in everything. I finally understood that he wasn’t hurting me or the people around me. There was a bigger picture, he had reason behind his actions the whole time.
Jesus replied, “you don’t understand what I am doing, but someday you will”
John 13:7
God began showing me the most vivid signs of where I was going and what I needed to be doing. He lead me directly to World Race Gap Year. On October 3rd, 2018, I committed to a Journey of a lifetime to share my story all around the world, to help people find their own faith. God changed my life, now he is using me to change others.
God is good. God is faithful.
