“Tell me Dammit!” was the title of a good friend’s e-mail to me a few days ago! He had been asking questions about where I was at on the race, what life was really like and how he could get a better picture of how it was, THE RAW REAL RACE!
BEFORE I GO ANY FURTHER THOUGH, I WANT TO SAY A HEARTFELT THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HELPED KEEP ME ON THE RACE! God used you in a mighty way and you have helped change my life and the lives of others by being so generous! I will forever be humbled by how God showed up through each of you!
SO I’LL TELL YOU, DAMMIT!
Today I spent the afternoon with a teammate letting out our creative and artistic sides trying to express through photos what this month had looked like! Normally I would only share these with my squadies and teammates but today I will let you have a look!
I used to spend a lot of my life performing for others, for their love and approval! This month I looked in the mirror and found out that foggy reflection isn’t me, it isn’t my God given identity. Now, don’t get me wrong this Karaoke mic in a local dive we’ve found will still be used any time I feel I want to belt out some Celine! But I no longer perform to be told who I am, I perform because that is part of who I am!
and sometimes life is about putting on a mask! Part of being myself is being RIDICULOUS and bringing a smile to others! being yourself is GrRRRRReat!
I thought before the race I would leave my heart in Africa, but instead I found it here! I have loved more than I ever thought possible. Instead of my heart having a special place in Africa, Africa will have a special place in my heart!
I am discovering how to be real. From head to toe, heart and soul. I am not trying to fake it anymore. No make up to cover or conceal, just natural beauty to reveal!
I am learning that transparency doesn’t mean just saying what ever comes to mind, but being teachable, open, honest, and willing to be exposed in your celebrations or sins! I am running after transparency, and still have miles to go, so that what you’ll see is always what you’ll get, God’s love!
*hope this satisfies all your criteria! Can’t say I didn’t tell you!
