On a normal day, my communication skills are sub par at best. These past few days haven’t been normal days. I’ve written so many words about so many different things going on in my head, but none of it makes sense. I’m basically a hot mess.
I still need to finish that drawing. I only have seven hundred and something dollars and six months until I leave. Why do I keep sinning so much? I still need to deliver those pictures. My support letter needs to be written. I need to have another fundraiser because I need cash to buy my gear. Why on earth are tents so expensive? I need to make a t-shirt design. I need to spend more time with God. I need to deliver that money.
And so on…
These thoughts and many more run through my head at any given time and it’s overwhelming. I very much want to be able to say that I am all good and everything is going smoothly, but I’m not and it’s not. I want to be able to say that I had a problem and I’m completely through it, but truth is, I’m still in the middle of it waiting to get to the other side. I struggle every single day with trying to remind myself to trust God and know that He will do what needs to be done because He cannot deny Himself. Even when we are faithless He is faithful. Even if I can’t, He can.
So if you come up and ask me how I’m doing, I might give you an “I’m doing great,” but that may not be the case. I’m trying to figure this all out and some days, I drown in my own thoughts and become overwhelmed with everything that needs to be done. If you see me, would you be so kind as to remind me that God has this and I’m not doing this alone? It’s easy to forget in the process and everyone needs a reminder every now and then of God’s truth.
Thank you so much for everyone’s encouraging words through this. You are appreciated more than you know.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
James 1:2-4
