A few weeks ago we had a SQM retreat and we did an exercise where we closed our eyes and stared into the face of God.
We sat in that place for 5 minutes.
I saw myself standing in a desert facing the Lord. It was a truly beautiful sight. Nothing in me was concerned with my surroundings; only the eyes of the Father that were staring back at me. He had taken me to a place where there was nothing around me but open land, with the desire that I would keep my eyes focused on Him. In the beauty of the picture I knew the Lord was smiling. I could physically feel the peace and joy of that moment.
And then I moved on. Like I always do.
My mind started wandering to a million other places; my email, the birds chirping outside, the coffee brewing in the kitchen. I could think of anything except the exercise at hand.
And then I heard the voice of the Lord, so clearly.
Come back to me. Stay here with me.
So I closed my eyes and brought myself back to the eyes of the Father. I wanted to keep pressing on with life because I thought I’d seen all there was, but there was so much more. That’s when I truly understand His heart for me.
His heart was that in everything, I see Him and His beauty. He is always there but so many times I miss Him as I plow through my busy life. It is a truly beautiful thing when we finally stop and just sit with our Daddy. He has so much for us if we just stop and look around.
In my life, and probably in many of your lives, we experience a need to always keep going. Life is busy and even when beautiful things are taking place around us; we forget to sit in awe and admire the beauty. Instead we smile as we pass it by.
The Lord has been teaching me what it looks like to truly see Him. It is crazy to think that we rush away from the eyes of a Father staring back at us, but we do. It is in our busy, hardwired, sinful nature to just keep going.
At worship a few weeks ago I saw a picture of myself; dancing and spinning in an open field of flowers. I was laughing and full of joy. I was 100% consumed in the beauty of life.
I never wanted to leave that field.
I have decided that I am staying in that field and nothing will keep me from seeing the beauty of my Father. I now look everywhere to see His face and I have been blown away at His overwhelming presence.
I sit up every morning in awe of the beauty that surrounds me and I take a few minutes to just sit in the lap of my Father who orchestrated it all.
I see beauty in my little apartment with creaky floors.
I see beauty in the smiles of my coworkers as we throw stress balls around the office.
I see beauty in the GORGEOUS Georgia sunsets.
I see beauty in my squad as they are doing life on the other side of the world.
I see true beauty in the eyes of a loving Father and Creator.
Life in Georgia hasn’t been anything like I expected. It has been more than I could’ve ever imagined. My heart is constantly filled with the joy of a little girl who has been given the chance to dance in a field of beautiful flowers.
I pray that you all find your field to dance in.
