Three nights ago, for the first time since launching on the WR in early January, I finally felt something for the very first time. I was sitting in one of our plastic chairs at about 9:00 in the evening, listening to the waterfall off in the distance, overlooking the mountains, and felt complete peace. Not to say that squad leading has been frantic and non-stop. It was just that the always changing “to do” list was as far as I could see, empty. I’m sure it wasn’t, but in that moment my mind was free and clear of everything.
I really believe that what I felt went beyond my own personal feeling in that moment. I think God just came in and said, “That’s enough for now. Just sit and enjoy the moment, enjoy the view, the people, and Me.”
It was odd. I’ve been learning that there is always one more thing which can be done. One more conversation to be had. One more e-mail to send. One more question to find or give an answer to. Hence the necessity of decent boundaries, especially with the entire squad being together this month. And rest…
Easier said than done. Sitting still when things need doing is not a strong point. I’m in the middle of a much needed day off, and trying to write this blog which might be the most frustrating blog I’ve tried to write. One would think that after 1.5 months of squad leading I would have all sorts of things to share.
This isn’t my first rodeo wrestling with resting, particularly on the Race. We’ve had some run-ins before and I’m all too familiar with the need of it. God rested after 6 days of creation. Jesus disappeared many times for some introvert time. If those two took the time to do it, you can bet your bottom dollar the rest of us need it just as much, if not more.
All of that being said, I’m doing incredibly well. I wake up every day feeling blessed to be doing what I am doing. I’m surrounded by amazing people. While life is definitely hard right now, it sure is good too.
Thanks for all of your continued support and prayers.
