I haven’t written a blog post until now because I had always thought blogging was for narcissists. I’m not very witty, I hate writing, and feel as if I have little wisdom to share with others. With these things in mind, you can see why I was initially frustrated and confused when I learned that blogging is a vital part of the “World Race experience.”
Then I went to training camp.
In a session focusing solely on blogging, I realized that I didn’t want to blog because I was scared. The Lord peeled back my pride and revealed insecurities. Who would want to read what I have to say? What if people make fun of me? Reject me? Because of this mindset, I haven’t had any form of social media until this past Sunday (plus the fact that I have huge potential to go insta-famous, and I don’t want it going to my head).
The Lord showed me at training camp how chained I was to fear, and how it translated into every part of my life. Fear of rejection, fear of inadequacy, fear of failing; yet I try continuously to mask these fears with a false version of myself. There is nothing to fear in Him. I am chosen, loved and worthy. He loves me, and every thought and word has value. Not just value, but power. He created each one of us perfectly, and wants us to be freely ourselves, unmasked and unfiltered.
I still can’t say that I love blogging, but I am excited to share what the Lord is doing and is going to do throughout this next year! More details to come about training camp.
