dear friends,
i’ve struggled loving myself in the present. i’ve struggled simply being in the present. until now.
recently, the Lord has been encouraging me to live in each moment. to not be swept up in routine. to release any anxiety or fear about the future. to not dwell in the past anymore. to give up control. to let go of the incredibly harsh expectations i have on myself.
today, i am writing a love letter to myself in this moment. nineteen year old living in ethiopia. this is not a letter to my past. this is not a letter of encouragement for me in the future. this is a letter to me right here, right now.
dear sadie,
celebrate how far you’ve grown. you are doing great right where you are at. you love so deeply. you praise so loudly. you are patient. you are radiant. you are empathetic. you are obedient. abba has so much for you. he is equipping you even when you feel unqualified. he is guiding you even when you feel lost. he is choosing you even when you think no one is. abba delights in you. he cherishes every moment you give to him. even in those sleepless nights. i’m so proud of you. you are learning so much. you are choosing the difficult things. the Father is so good and never punishes us. there is no more shame. you are enough exactly as you are. stop striving and instead rest in the truth spoken over you by your heavenly Father. you are actually full of joy. you have such authority. quit working to prove yourself. live in your identity. trust the Lord and the promises he has given you. they will be fulfilled. they will. and it’s because he loves you and not because of what you’ve accomplished or what you can offer. he loves you. that’s it. he loves you because you are you. rest in that truth. your time is coming, sure. but also your time is here. in this exact moment.
so here’s to trust. trusting in my Father with each day. trusting in myself for he has qualified me for this exact moment. here’s to today. not yesterday, not tomorrow.
with love,
sadie
