I am not a poet by any means, but this morning I woke up and I had this urgent feeling to spend time with God. So I was praying and I got out my Bible and journal and I had this strange urge to write a poem. I’ve kinda learned when I’m having time really trying to listen for God and spend time with Him and then I get a random urge to do something, I should probably do it. So I wrote a poem in my journal this morning and before I knew it the first thing written on the page in all caps was THIS MIGHT NOT BE VERY PRETTY. So I guess I was warning myself, this is kind of real and raw and its not very pretty but God wanted me to write it and I feel a lot better after getting it out. So, here it is.
I try to remember Your love and Your grace,
but still each day I feel those thoughts fade.
My soul is constantly surrounded by You, there’s no doubt in my mind.
But as I’m walking through these hardships I leave that truth behind.
I’m tired of trying to handle things on my own.
I need you to speak to me loudly that I’m not alone.
Lately I’ve been looking at myself through the eyes of man.
But I’m so sick of those lies and I’m ready to stand.
Today I’ll stand tall i the truth that I’m the apple of Your eye.
It won’t be perfect but I’m going to try.
Fight for me, God. Your Word says You will.
You fight for me and I’ll stay still.
Your yolk is easy and Your burden is light,
and I often forget that I don’t have to fight.
Hide me in the shadow of Your wings,
and remind me again not to worry about so many things.
I need rest God. I’m tired of fighting so I’m coming to You.
It’s so great to know this morning as You’re reading this, Your mercies are new.
So I’m starting this morning with a clean slate.
That is something only You can fathom how much I appreciate.
I’ll follow Your lead and forgive myself for things of the past,
In Jesus’ name I won’t let judgments linger, I won’t let it last.
I’m surrendering my will to You,
I know I wont be disappointed God, do what You do.
