Hey friends, Happy late Easter 🙂
I’m so thankful that I can say I’ve raised enough money for the first two deadlines, and I can definitely leave for The World Race! We have to have $7,500 to leave in July and I’ve already got a little over $9,000! I’ve been so blessed, and I’m praying that the rest of the money will be provided by the time I need it.
I’ve just been sitting in my bed (I’ve been trying to get in as much bed-time as possible these days since for 11 months my mattress will be 2 inches thick) and writing in my journal, and it occurred to me that I am not nearly as afraid of the changes I’m about to experience as I thought I would be.
When I tell people about this trip, especially now that it’s coming up so soon, the first response I usually get is “Aren’t you scared?!”
Well, of course I’m scared. I’m about to leave my life of comfort behind and share all my personal space, time, and vulnerabilities with people I’ve yet to meet. But it’s not the fear I’ve been anticipating. It’s the same fear I had when I was a young teenager and I went on a day trip to this river and a bunch of us climbed up a trail so that we could jump off the edge into the water. I’m guessing it was about 20 feet high, maybe 15…I really don’t remember. But what I do remember is looking down and my whole body being very scared. I was scared of the unknown but also thrilled, knowing I was about to do something that I’ve never done and knowing that I would feel amazing once I just went for it. All I had to do was jump. And I did, and guess what…I felt amazing after I jumped.
And that’s how I see this trip. I’m jumping, blindly to an extent, into a different life. I’ve got the nervous feeling, the anticipation is insane, but I’m so ready to jump. One of my squad mates posted this quote on her facebook and I love it, because it describes what we’re doing perfectly.
“It’s a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you’re ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it now. Generally speaking, now is as good a time as any.”
So I’m as ready as I’ll ever be, and I’m so happy I’m doing this. Thanks to everyone who has supported me so far through prayer, giving, and encouraging words.
– Sadie
