Sorry in advance for my scatter brained writing. Luckily God isn’t calling me into journalism.
At the beginning of this month, my team and I decided to make goals for what we wanted to get out of this month. An inspirational video I’d seen came to mind (that I suggest everyone watch on YouTube – Sunscreen by Baz Luhrmann) and I told the team I thought we should do one thing that scares us this month. I’ve been really excited to live that one out but as the days started to go by quickly I wondered what I would do that scares me.
Let me backtrack to month seven. In month seven I was in Malawi and I felt God’s call to start a makeup line. Helping girls and women see themselves for their true worth and showing them that it comes from God’s view of them is something I’m really passionate about. I’m also extremely passionate about makeup. I’m still getting used to saying that confidently. It’s not something I ever thought was a legitimate thing to be passionate about before the race but God has taken me to a sweet place where He shows me that the things I love are not by accident and He wants to use my passions for His glory.
So I decided I definitely wanted to start this makeup line with a mantra of “Beauty isn’t your enemy, but it can’t be your identity.” A few months before deciding this, I heard about a discipleship school in Spain called G42.
The G42 Leadership Academy is a six month program created for discipling, inspiring and equipping young men and women to locate their passion – whether in business, the non-profit realm, church planting or the arts – and to develop a strategy to use that passion to bring Kingdom to the earth.
Last month I applied for G42 and yesterday I got an acceptance email. I knew that it was going to either happen for me or not, but when I saw the email I freaked out. I couldn’t believe this was actually happening and I got scared. Thoughts of doubt and lies started to flood my mind.
This makeup line is just a dream.
How will I get the $6,300 tuition by January?
I’m tired of raising support.
Will my family support this decision?
In a very thoughtful mood, I went to dinner with my team later that night and as I sat there, “Do one thing that scares you” popped into my head. Shoot. Okay. As I thought about it, I realized there was nothing that could have been a more perfect fit for my goal of doing something that scares me this month. So last night I said yes. I’m not considering it anymore. I’m going to G42 in January.
God is showing me that dependence on Him daily is the only way I will achieve this. I’m incredibly excited to take this journey and allow myself to be used to promote His Kingdom in a unique way.
*Happy dance!*
