My last blog was all about how I was scared, but in a GOOD way. Umm, well, it seems almost as if Satan decided “challenge accepted” and I have been scared, not in a good way a lot lately.
Since my last blog post, I went to a travel doctor to get shots and had a 45 minute conversation with a woman who basically explained to me all the different ways I could die on this trip.
A few days later, I was home alone and saw a spider on my dresser. It wasn’t even that big; it could have fit on a nickle but it freaked me out. It made my stomach turn trying to work up the courage to kill it, and when I finally did I felt like I was going to throw up and/or cry.
Now that training camp is FIVE days away, I’ve started to get really nervous. I know this is God’s plan for me and I know I will be okay, but I can’t help but feel extremely intimidated. Luckily, I had some good time with God last night and He showed me something.
So this is a little encouragement for any of my squad mates that may be feeling the same way:
I was writing in my prayer journal last night and found myself writing “Please help me to be thankful for everything, even the troubles in my life.”
And while reading my Bible I read this…
Philippians 4:6 – Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
After about 30 minutes of praying, writing, and reading, I felt peace that could only be from God. And how cool that Philippians 4:7 says “And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
So from today on I will work on being thankful, in all circumstances.
I’m thankful for my fear of the unknown.
I’m thankful that I am not yet fully funded.
I’m thankful that I feel unprepared.
I’m thankful that I am afraid of how much I will miss my family and friends.
I’m thankful that I don’t know what I’m doing when I get back from this trip.
I know there will be ups and downs and there are going to be moments when I feel terrified, but I really think that if I can just hold onto being thankful to Jesus for everything that’s going on, it will all be okay.
🙂 Love, Sadie
