Here are a few words from a song that I feel God is speaking to me, and to all of His children:
“I have a plan for you, I have a plan for you. It’s gonna be wild, it’s gonna be great, it’s gonna be full of Me.”
In a few days I will be beginning month two of the race. The weird thing about this trip is how fast and slow it goes. I read it and was told 100 times “it’s the shortest and longest year of your life” but you really don’t grasp what they mean until you experience it. On one hand, I feel like the flight to the DR was so insanely long ago, but at the same time I’m wondering how in the world we’ve already gone through a whole month. It’s crazy.
God has been working in me a lot, teaching me to trust Him and ask Him for more of what I need like patience, faith, and drive. One of my squad leaders explained it well to me, and told me when you pray for patience, God isn’t just going to say “Okay, and here’s a drop of patience. Boop.” He’s going to put you through things where you have to practice patience. It’s scary to ask God for these things, because I know He wants to give them to me but I also know there isn’t a quick and easy answer.
Yesterday I was feeling sick and it was so hot outside. As I was lying in my eno, I prayed that God would let it rain to cool everything off. Within 15 minutes the breeze got stronger and the sun hid behind the clouds. I was so thankful for the drop in temperature, but an hour later when I was on the porch it actually started raining, and then pouring. The rain was getting on everything and even sitting on the porch, we were getting wet. About 30 minutes into the downpour, I was pretty much over the rain. And God spoke to me and reminded me that I asked for the rain. I asked and He gave me what I asked for. And the rain is kind of like this race.
I’m asking for refinement.
I’m asking for more faith.
I’m asking Him to use me.
I’m not asking for a light rain; I’m asking for a downpour.
And the rain is coming, and it’s definitely not always easy but I’m so glad I asked for it. So to anyone reading this blog, I would encourage you to ask God for more. More of His presence, more of His voice guiding your life, more virtuous attributes. But be ready because when you ask your Father for stuff like that, He is going to give it to you and it will probably be hard but it will be so amazing!
And just a little update, we leave for a four day debrief tomorrow morning, and after that we will be on our way to Haiti! Your prayers are much appreciated 🙂
