Matthew 14:25-31
“And in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, “It is a ghost!” and they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.” And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?”
I, like Peter, am restless for God’s power to be tangible and real to me. I have a huge passion to love on the unloved and bring hope to the hopeless. “Lord, if this passion is from you, command me to come to you on the water.” After much prayer and advice, I heard that magical, powerful word…
“Come.”
If only we could live in the excitement of those first couple steps. However, the wind is fierce and the waves are strong. Fear and doubt immediately followed my decision. I immediately missed the safety and comfort of the boat (College, comfort, and security in my case). I began to sink as I focused on the impracticality of taking a year off before college and the people I would deeply miss. I was scared I wouldn’t raise all the money I needed for the trip and that I wouldn’t fit well with my team. However, these were lies from the enemy. I cried out those words, “Lord, save me.” And he did! He rid me of those doubts and fears and gave me peace and assurance, and excitement! Like Peter, I had taken my eyes off of Jesus and put them on the wind and the waves… that is when I had started to sink. Peter forgot the power of God; he chose fear over faith.
There are times when I am still afraid; and times when I question why the heck I’m doing this. But Jesus is continually revealing to me the lies that the enemy is tempting me with. Comfort and security is a lie if it is outside of Jesus! I am learning to rely on the power of God more than the “security” of the American Dream.
I would like to ask for prayer from those that are reading this. I deeply love my comfort zone and I do not want to leave it. Fundraising is a huge step outside of that! Pray that I would keep my eyes fixed on Jesus rather than my fears.
This is the first blog of many. The purpose of them is to let you know what is going on this journey and what the Lord is teaching me along the way. I would love to tell you more about my trip and answer any questions you may have! If you click the “Follow Me” link on the left and put in your email, you will be notified when I post another article.
MUCH LOVE,
Sabrina
