I Believe

I believe

At age 23 I woke-up to the realization that the “perfect picture” for my life was actually paint by numbers, and I had lost the color key. (The Word of God)

My life looked something like a bad Salvador Dali. I cried out to the Lord, and the next thing I knew, I found myself sitting on the back row of a church I had never been to, as a matter of fact, I hadn’t been to “a” church in a long time. Not knowing why I was there, and not listening to the message, the Lord still found a way to speak to me! God used two ladies sitting in the row in front of me; they hadn’t said a word to me the entire service, and just as I was about to sneak out the back door, one lady turned and handed me two little white note cards.

“God wants you to know he has a huge plan for your life. You have seen many dark days…. days of deep darkness. But your best days are ahead. Days of light, days of brightness, days of joy. Better days lie ahead. God sees your many wounds. In the days ahead, they will be exposed. Not to bring hurt to you, but to heal you. These wounds are wounds to your heart. Don’t be discouraged when these wounds are exposed, but little by little they will be healed. Don’t be discouraged by the slow process it will take to bring healing. When the pain gets so great you can’t take it, remember that is the depth of healing God is bringing into your heart. Also, like a doctor has to completely get out the dirt and infection in a wound, God must do the same with the deep wounds of your heart. When you feel the pain so deeply, remember that once that point is reached…. once the deepest part of your heart wound is cleaned out…. healing will come. The pain won’t last forever. God’s goal is to completely heal your heart. No longer surface “band-aids” but complete and total healing. These wounds in your heart are keeping you from running the race God has placed before you. You have a race to run and a race to complete…. a race to finish. Praise God!”

My Father in heaven spoke TO ME! The worst sinner of them all! And in the blink of an eye, God took my canvas and made it as white as snow. Seven years later I still put a blotch or two on the page, but I quickly remember God’s picture for my life is way more beautiful than anything I could ever imagine.