In our time at Pambara…there was a lot of time for reading and pondering. Here are a couple of thoughts I wrote in my journal while we were out there waiting for something to do. Along with a few random pictures.
I’m wondering, and I pray that this isn’t just a lie from satan…but I’m wondering if I’m not ready yet to fully lay down my life for Christ yet. I just don’t know if in my heart I’m focused or devoted enough yet. There’s just a lot of other things I find myself wanting to do in life. And not that I cani’t wait 6 more months to do them…it just makes it hard to focus and devote myself to now, when all these things are swirling around in my head. I want to be focused on God and what he wants me to be secondly focused on.
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This was written amongst all the thoughts about planning and set-up, and the apparent lack-there-of sometimes. I think we perceive it to be worse than it really is most of the time, but I think it’s still a valid thought or argument.
We gotta make this trip for ourselves… and/or figure out the right mindset to get in for this trip. Cuz I mean, yeah expectations can be bad…but I think if you are better prepared and thus have better and more accurate expectations, the more productive you will likely end up being. Not to say that there’s not value in being blindsided by the reality of what ends up happening…but I guess I just think of things more productively or practically. I don’t know.
