Sat-July 7 – 0:42 – Lighthouse, Rustenburg
So I guess you could say I’ve still been a little stressed and burned out by things lately. stressed a little w/ emailing and remembering everything to tell everyone and figuring our what we’re gonna do in
SE Asia, and just burned out by all this. And with ministry. It’s tough for me to be content right now w/ what we’re doing. It just doesn’t seem like it’s enough. But I’m pretty sure it needs to be enough. I need to stop worrying about what certain people might be thinking of me.
Something else I was thinking tonight though…was that one other thing that I have learned this year is a much greater confidence. (It’s gotta be a straight up answer to my daily prayer since mid February of, “Lord, give me confidence and strength as a leader and as a man). A confidence w/ a lot of different things really, but one is a confidence w/ directly ministering to people when it’s just me and them. I know this new found confidence has already benefited me on this trip, but what I mainly am seeing right now is how it’s gonna benefit me when I get back home. On this trip I’ve learned how to interact w/ people better. How to engage with them. And I’ve learned how to see people a little more like God sees them. I have a greater confidence I think with helping people with things they need; being generous.
I think back to a Tiger’s game I went to, 2 seasons ago I think it was. As me and my friends were leaving and heading back to the car, I passed by a homeless man just sitting on the curb. I don’t remember if he had his hand out or whatever…but I got a gut feeling, like I should’ve stopped and talked to him or something. I now know that that was probably God telling me thru that gut feeling to talk to him or something. But I kept walking on by. I even turned back to look at him once or twice. Maybe in hopes that someone else had stopped to talk to him, and then I would’ve been off the hook somehow. I was a chicken. I was afraid to stop and do something, because back then I lacked that confidence and knowledge of what to do in a simple situation like that.
Now, I’m pretty sure, or at least would hope that if I was in that situation again, and got that feeling again…I would for sure stop. (and also, now I know that I can ask and I know how to ask God for something else that I may need at that moment, and know and trust that He’s gonna give me what I need to give that guy on the curb what he needs) Cuz now, I have a much better idea of when God is telling me to do something, and I’ve learned how to approach someone like that, and how to just love them and be jesus to them. I know how to ask certain questions, I know how to ask if I can pray for them and for what to pray for them about. I just have such a better idea, and better confidence of and better knowledge of how to be Jesus to the people I encounter in life.
I mean I have met some random people this year. (even in the first week in
mexico, I met a guy that I’m pretty sure was demon possessed)
I’ve bought food for random people this year. I bought a bible for a lady that I’d met on a beach in
Guatemala, who was missing half of her shin! I’ve ministered to people in ways that I didn’t know how to minister to before!
It’s pretty cool yo.
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and so is fourth of july fireworks on the other side of the world
