Summer is here and we all know what that means! Time to get all tan, float the river, camping, eat lots of ice cream, and have no school. It’s a time for vacation, travel, make lots of memories, and maybe work to make some money. Who has two thumbs and will not be doing any of these activities this summer? Ryan Johnson. (A revised Scrubs quote that Bob Kelso would say.)
This coming up summer is not starting how I thought it would be; with how its starting its going to be a looooooong summer. I currently work at Buffalo Wild Wings & I was enjoying it until I told my managers that I’ll be leaving in September to do the Lord’s work on the World Race. They didn’t seem happy about it. Ever since then, they have been treating with disrespect and constantly yell at me. Every day I work I dread going into work and it has been hard to show and shine the one true love & light.
My family still does not really support me in this and with work, my heart has been heavy and I have lost sight of the goal. This should not be!! I want my family to be behind me so much. It would comfort me when family is behind me & are exited about doing what the Lord has called me to do. It’s such a struggle to leave them behind like a couple disciples did when they left to follow Jesus. I just came from a family reunion and shared with what I have been up to & where the Lord is taking me in September. Told the story of how I know this is where God wants me. Response: “Sounds like an awesome vacation, you sure this is where God wants you? I would wait to hear from him your calling, I wouldn’t go, do something else that is cheaper.” Seems like my whole family is not behind me. Why is this so hard to leave my family behind to follow and be with Jesus?
A month ago I was reminded of a saying, “Bloom where you are planted.” Bloom? Why would I want to do that with all the junk that has been happening? I’m ready to be uprooted and head overseas already. So tire of being here, been here for far too long. Why wait till September, let’s just go now!! The answer to that question is quite simple; I’m not ready yet. I still have lots to learn, being molded into what he wants me to be, and growing up to do. I want to continue to bloom, but I can’t do it all alone. With what’s going on I’m reminded of a David Crowder Band song called “All I Can Say.” The song talks about different trials that we face. Few of the lines are; “wasn’t it you I gave my heart to, I wish you would remember where you sat it down. Lord I’m tired, so tired of walking, and Lord I’m so alone. I didn’t notice that you were, crying to.” But, he is the Lord! He is sovereign!!
Lately, I have lost sight of the goal, and with everything going on I have become unmotivated to really do anything. From going to work, to fundraising, to being down right lazy. It’s so overwhelming that I don’t want to spend time with the Lord, but, that is one thing I need right now. This also should not be! I have been pushing through to spend time with him. I’m so grateful and glad I have been.
I was doing an in depth study of Hosea and chapter 11:1-4 were amazing. Verse 4: I led them with cords of kindness, with the bands of love, and I became to them as one who eases the yoke on their jaws, and I bent down to them and fed them. All this goes back to the Israelites wandering the desert for 40 years. He showed them kindness and fed them manna. He knew what he was doing. Also, been going the weeping prophet Jeremiah. Jeremiah talks about blooming in a different way. Blooming like a tree with trust. I want to encourage you to read and let Jeremiah 17: 5-13 speak to you. Let us be planted by streams of water sends it roots by the water and does not wither when the fear of heat comes (verse 8.) Let us trust in the Lord, for he knows what he is doing, and is doing it! Let us also be planted in his truth and constantly be green and be planted in the living water. Everything will work out in his timing for his timing is perfect. I’m reminded of some words from he classic hymn of This is My Father’s World; the words are o so rich.
This is my Father’s world. O let me ne’er forget
That though the wrong seems oft so strong, God is the ruler yet.
This is my Father’s world: He shines in all that’s fair;
In the rustling grass I hear Him pass;
He speaks to me everywhere.
This is my Father’s world, should my heart be ever sad?
The Lord is King—let the heavens ring. God reigns—let the earth be glad.
With the first finically deadline & training camp approaching I am getting excited and scared at the same time. I am short about $850 and not sure if I’m going to make it, and with no idea how to get to training camp. I have been praying, surrendering, trusting, and been learning from the Lord. I have no idea what I’m getting myself into, but, how rewarding it will be! I pray that the Lord will provide everything to make this calling he has giving me come to life. If you feel the Spirit moving on what you just read and feel compelled and led to partner with me, that would make my heart leap for joy. On the left side click on support me and fill it out. Thank you everyone for partnering praying for me and with me, and for the friendship. I cannot wait for what the Lord has in store for me!
