What have I had so far?
I’ve had two loving parents my whole life. I’ve had an awesome brother and sister my whole life. I’ve had friends my whole life. I’ve been athletic my whole life. I’ve had shelter my whole life. I’ve had food my whole life. I’ve had clothes my whole life. I’ve had sports my whole life. I’ve had school my whole life. I’ve gone to church my whole life. I’ve gone to the same church my whole life. I’ve had the same pastor my whole life. I’ve been a “Christian” my whole life… Right? No.
I’ve been BLESSED with so much! God has been so good. But for the first 17 years in my life, I was going through the motions. I’ve had everything I could really ask for, and a “Christian” label to slap on to what I do and who I am. However, it wasn’t until a couple of years ago that the Holy Spirit overwhelmed me and COMPLETELY changed my life, and I have never been the same since. PRAISE GOD!
God has grown me and shown me so much since then, but I want more. I’m hungry. I want change. I’m longing to know my Father more! I’m longing for a closer more intimate relationship with him. I no longer live for Ryan Farmer but for Jesus Christ! I no longer live for my needs but for His! I will not settle. I will not stand still. I can not get comfortable I want nothing but Christ!… I’ve had everything. But now… now I long for nothing. I want nothing because I want all of Christ. Yes I want other things. Good things that God has blessed us with having… like a wife, kids, a home, and what not. But when it comes down to it, no wants are greater than the want for God.
God… give me nothing…. so I can have everything. You. Are. Everything.
