The past couple of years I have been asked “What do you want to do with your life? What are your dreams/desires?” like a million times. Every time I kind of drew a blank. I am not a long term planner. I hadn’t given it much thought to what I wanted to do. I knew I wanted to be a wife and a mother but that is really all I could come up with (honestly it’s the only thing I thought I could be half good at.) I thought I had it all planned out. I was dating a really good guy and was starting to become friends with some really great godly people and I could just see it all planned out before me. We would get married and have babies and I would have mommy Starbucks dates with all of my awesome new friends and we would live happily ever after.
That was MY plan.
Without knowing it I was willing to live in Stagnantville for the rest of my life because I did not want to even think that MY plan wasn’t God’s plan. I wanted what I wanted and I wasn’t willing to give that dream up.
Stagnantville; the tiny village where no one grows or changes. It seems to be a really comfy place to be but it’s a trap! The people of Stagnantville are never satisfied.
The more I started allowing the Lord to have reign in my life the more I realized that Stagville SUCKED and I wanted more out of life. I wanted to know the wonders and beauty of Jesus and when you are truly seeking the Lord there is no way you can stay stagnant.
Honestly it took that really good guy breaking up with me and that dream that I thought was perfect and right to completely disappear for me to commit to the journey that the Lord wanted to take me on. (I wish it didn’t have to be that way but I am thankful for grace and second chances. :}) I began releasing fears about the future. The LIES that I had to scramble to find a dream or a plan for my life so I wasn’t looked at as a “slacker” or even worse that I actually might not end up doing anything with my life were lifted off of me and God sweetly began speaking to me about his plan and purpose for my life.
He gave me a new revelation that its not about me. It’s not about me. It’s not about my happiness. The purpose of life is to show God’s glory.
But the cool thing is that with this revelation came overwhelming JOY and can I just say that Joy > happiness?!
I still think one day I’m gonna be a mama and a wife but that wont be the end of my story. I trust God with my heart’s desires. I want to go where He leads me [i.e. The World Race ;)]I am so excited to see the new seasons and adventures the Lord continues to take me on.
It’s gonna be good, people!
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
