This post is not about my hair really. 😉 Tricked ya.
This post is about identity.
A couple weeks ago I was mulling over the idea of dying my hair a crazy color and chopping it off and one of my biggest concerns was well what will people think of me?! And then that was foolishly followed with WELL I DONT CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK!!!! (that isn’t true at all) I do care. I care a lot. I want to be seen as a good person. I want to be viewed as beautiful and lovely. And not rebellious or unwise.
And those are all good things to strive for but as I am sitting there weighing the pros and cons of my silly hair choices God spoke a deep truth in my heart. He told me that my identity is not based on my hair or my clothes or even who PEOPLE say I am. My identity is who He says I am. My identity is not found in my occupation or social standing. It’s not found in my personality or God given gifts. My identity is not found in how clean or messy or compassionate or cruel or funny or smart or pretty I am but truly in who God, my heavenly father says I am.
Well, who does He say I am?
Honestly I only see a glimpse of who He says I am. I had written and erased a whole paragraph about who I think He says I am (ya know, the whole sunday school bit) and mostly it was probably true but do I believe it? That’s been my prayer for a while now. Show me who you say I am. What is my identity? I feel like I keep hitting a brick wall. I know I am redeemed. He has spoken that over me since the day I was born. And I do know He loves me and is actively pursuing my heart. And I guess it is okay that I feel like I am just on the cusp of understanding and knowing. It sounds cliche but it truly is a journey we are all on. And man, I know mine has only just began.
Pray for perseverance and strength and a deeper understanding of His heart for all of His children.
lovie, Ryan
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