Disclaimer: Short and sweet and to the point
Lately I have really been feeling the weight of what this next year will be like. I am soooooooo excited to continue on this journey and love on babies in every country we stop in. And I feel honored that I get to shine a light in areas of darkness around the world in the name of Jesus but in order to do that I have to say goodbye to a lot of things and people and that thought honestly brings tears to my eyes. I LOVE my community. I love my spiritual parents and my best friends. I love my church family. I love how comfortable I feel. Not to mention my own family!!! I call my mama almost everyday on my way home from work and my sweet sweet nanny is gracefully walking through a battle with cancer and I have tried to be present as much as possible. My little brother is going to be turning 21 this up coming year and my dad is in the middle of receiving a masters degree in counseling. These are things I am going to miss. These are the people I am going to miss.
This is the hard part. I feel so loved and known and accepted at this point in my life with the people I am surrounded by. It’s so comfy. But God is asking to grow me. To strengthen me. He is asking me to trust Him. With my family and my friends and my future. This isn’t a decision that I have taken lightly. I have counted the cost of what this next year means. I know that there are going to be moments where I feel the sting of distance. But I know that Jesus is worth it. I am learning that I can trust Him because He is good.
He is GOOD.
He is my joy and rest.
“The Lord gives His people strength. The Lord blesses them with peace.” Psalm 29:11
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-Ryan
