This month is one of the most interesting yet.
I have a new team.
All girls.
Six of us girls out in the Cambodian bush.
I went from four months of city life to…
Definition of the bush.
There is no need to go into all the details and accommodations of this month
but I will tell you that mosquitoes and ants have decided to
dine on the flesh of Ruth Wilson.
It has built character for sure.
I will also say that our attempt at a bath consists of pond water
and there is generated electricity for 4 of the 24 hours in the day.
But I honestly couldn’t be happier.
It’s the simple life.
House visits to the elderly by morning.
Teaching 200 Cambodia children English by afternoon.
Going deeper with the sisters by night.
The Lord knew what He was doing this month.
I have been stripped of all my dependencies.
Music makes my world go around.
I love nothing more than to stick my Ipod in when I am
Upset. Tired. Anti-social. Annoyed. Even simply mediocre.
Turns out my Ipod died. Like really died. Like RIP moment.
This was my first wake up call that I must turn to Him in these times.
Another wake up call… I love taking pictures.
I take pictures to decument all the bazaar and beautiful things I see…
Sometimes missing what HE is doing right in front of my eyes.
My camera now takes neon photos.
Funny Lord.
Strike two.
This is ridiculous but another one of my dependencies in life is
Coffee.
I feel as though I need it to attain my full potential in a day.
Cambodians don’t deem it necessary to drink it on a daily basis…
Hard lesson to learn but yet again I realize that
and stripping me of my dependencies.
Detox.
Strike three I’m out.
This all seems fairly trivial..
but to me it has been slightly nauseating.
It’s one of those feelings like
“why did it take me this long to actually learn that on my own.”
HE is the only thing that is a constant.
Physical things come and go.
Nothing I “own” is truly mine.
All of this to say that God is so good.
I would not trade any of these things for the silent time
that I get to have with Him laying in one of the many hammocks around.
No distractions just chilling with the Lord.
He has been whispering future plans for my life in my ear.
Soft but they are exhilarating.
He has taken the blindfold from my eyes.
And I get butterflies with what I see.
With the beautiful things He has revealed
in vivid detail.
This month is a wake up call.
We have just begun…
And I have finally been growing into the
woman he has created me to be
Just by being out in the jungle without any distractions.
We have been talking like we really DO have a relationship.
Weird.
I have discovered true mutual conversations with Him.
Strange right.
About time since I have had full on WAR with Him the past 8 months.
The past 21 years even.
There is a verse in Matthew that says if you eye causes you to stumble pluck it out.
This is not a figure of speech.
He is serious.
I think that is what He is doing to me.
No music isn’t necessarily bad.
Taking photographs are not of the devil.
Coffee by no means is wrong–I know the Lord loves coffee…
But IF I am finding my dependency in these things and
not my Savior…
I am wrong.
He should be my only dependency.
Back to the basics.
I challenge you to look real deep into what may keep you from truly hearing from Him.
He is always talking.
It could be a subtle whisper or full blown ferocious roar.
Be silent for a second. I promise He is talking.
