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I have been exposed to a tiny portion of hurt and darkness in the world and I am legit haunted by it.


Since returning home from training camp about a month ago I have found myself absolutely drained. I haven’t spent much time in the word or written much in my journal. I am just numb to it. I convince myself that…

 if I don’t think of it.. it’s not there.

Out of sight out of mind.


What I don’t know cant hurt me.


Well turns out I do know. I have seen the faces. I have heard the heart wrenching stories of things little babies and young girls go through everyday. Every. Single. Day. It is not okay. It will be stopped. I have come to the end of my numbness.. my post training camp ignorance is over and I am embracing it. I remember one night they were just exposing us to so much pain. One story after another… my heart was so heavy that I had to remind myself to take breaths. The pain was so intense that I could not even cry. I felt as though I was in a nightmare and I saw what I needed to do and I was running and sprinting as fast as I could but I was unable to move at all.

I remember being so angry and begging God to fix it and asking Him, “why on earth isn’t anything being done about this…” He had a subtle whispering response and said “I am. I am sending you, Ruth.” BAM. Ruth get over yourself. I literally have to say that to myself over and over and over again. Just get over yourself. I am such an extremist that I either want to make it all to go away or not even mess with it. I find myself yet again trying to put all the power in my own hands and not in HIS. I have had an awakening though, and I know it is all in His hands and I am so thrilled to be a part.

I leave in 44 days from today. That’s when my life will forever be changed. I will see things that will haunt me for the rest of my life.. I will see things that will bless me for the rest of my life as well. I will see the Lord work in absolute crazy ways. BUT the World Race is not my end goal. It is a portion of my life the Lord has blessed me with but I cannot be numb to it when I am not hands on- on the field. I need to beg God to pour His love over them and protect them even though I cannot be there yet. Although some of you cannot go, you can absolutely be a part of this crazy adventure of feeding the hungry. Clothing the naked. Loving the unloved. Seeking the lost that they may be found. If you will begin to saturate us in prayer as we start counting down the days until we peace out. We are all secretly (and some more verbally) freaking out but so stoked at the same time. It’s getting to crunch time with support raising and goodbyes and figuring out how important cute shoes ultimately are when they will be carried on our backs the entire year;) It is just a bittersweet time in all of our lives and I ask you to keep us all in your prayers. Also, if you feel called to give there is a tab on the left side of the page that says “Support Me.” My socks have been blown off by the provision of the Lord in the past couple months. I only need $4,000 more in order to be fully funded!! I fully trust that He will provide down to the last penny. Any tiny bit helps. I am not going to put a bunch of sad pictures of starving kids around the world and attempt to guilt you into supporting this, if you are called to give, you know it:)



All in all this blog is just to catch you up on how my heart is / isn’t holding up. 😉 I have been numb but I am getting my feeling back and I would love to have prayer as He continues to feed my passion. Pray that as I launch in 44 days my strength and identity is found in Him and Him alone. 


The Spirit of the Lord God is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to bring good news to the poor.
He has sent me to heal the brokenhearted,
to proclaim liberty to the captives,
and freedom to the prisoners;
to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor,
and the day of our God’s vengeance;
to comfort all who mourn.
to provide for those who mourn in Zion;
to give them a crown of beauty instead of ashes,
festive oil instead of despair.
and they will be called righteous trees,
planted by the LORD,
to glorify Him.

Isaiah 61:1-3