Christmas Eve marked our half-way point for the world race.
That’s right.
I am officially half way finished with this crazy Race.
The talk of “what are you doing after the Race?” seems to happen more often.
My answer is still the same: I have no idea.
It’s got me thinking, though, about some ideas, like:
Maybe finish school?
Maybe prepare to come back to one of these places long term?
Maybe live in a different state for awhile?
Probably live at home with my parents for a few months.
Probably work at a coffee shop and rebuild my savings from zero.
Definitely take some time to rest and process and pray about what I want to be when I grow up.
But sometimes I get scared thinking about the transition from this crazy, ever-changing lifestyle (that I LOVE by the way) and into my routine in America.
As these thoughts started getting a little overwhelming, I got a word from one of my teammates (who had no idea I had been thinking these things):
~You are where He wants you.
~You do not need to be anywhere else.
~Stop worrying about what your calling should look like, cuz it looks exactly like it should.
~You were called as you are…and that is all you need to be. ~So keep walking as you have been.
~And the Lord will provide peace and security along the way.
I love how God knows exactly what you need to hear and when. I realized I had begun straying from God’s love and began looking for my security in other people, in how ministry was going, and basically anything but Him.
I also was reminded how I usually come back empty when I seek reassurances from others first.
I read a quote from a previous racer’s blog today. It said, “I'm becoming homeless- meaning I'm rejecting the fantasy that I'll ever obtain enough physical comfort in this world to satisfy my soul” (http://curtdevine.theworldrace.org/?filename=hot-to-survive-in-america-part-1).
That really hit home.
Because I want to return to America with a thankfulness that I have never had before.
But I also want to remember that I was made for another world and that I will never be fully satisfied on this earth.
Ignorance might be bliss, but reality has given me a responsibility: to live in the tension of heaven and earth.
To comfort the afflicted and afflict the comfortable (something Wess Stafford from Compassion always used to say).
To live a life of thankfulness, passion and good stewardship.
I want to live like I was made for eternity…no matter where God has me.
And so I continue this Race with perseverance, fully trusting God to move me however and wherever he wants. And though this “Race” will end in about 5 months, I will continue racing toward Him until the end.
