It’s crazy how much
God has been growing and changing me, giving me freedom and revealing a new life
to me. It’s been difficult at times, struggling against who I used to be and
trying to step into who it is He wants me to become. But He’s been so faithful
and great about walking with me, meeting me where I am, and teaching me
patiently!
In this new life, I
am walking in a more respectful way of others – showing preference and honoring
others above myself. I’m allowing their wants and needs to take preference over
my own and learning to be selfless. I’m learning (and struggling) with being
generous and sharing and not caring of my possessions, willingly allowing the
other girls on my team to use things which God has blessed me with. Also, being
patient and waiting on God for His timing instead of wanting everything now,
now, now! I’m learning to find my identity in Christ and who He has created me
to be, not in what others think of me. One of the most important things I’m
learning is how to live in close, comfortable community with other women. It’s
the biggest challenge and I often find myself wanting to disappear and be alone
but I’m forcing myself to try to be a part of the group and hang out with them
more.
I’m learning to
walk in the greatest freedom that there is, the freedom that comes from being
in captivity to God. He’s freely forgiven me, died for me, and is inviting me
to step into a new life with Him. It’s a beautiful struggle and I’m learning so
much about Him in the process! It’s been freaky cool and so awesome, the things
He’s been revealing to me. Visions, words of encouragement, prophecies, things
about the future and the end times even… The closer I get and the more I know
and understand, the more I get that I know and understand next to nothing. Pray
that I continue to hunger and thirst and seek after God and His will, and that
I step fully and excitedly into this new life which He has for me!
