I am good enough. I am loved beyond belief. There is a powerful God with me, if I have faith then nothing is impossible.
I am not going to lie. I’m scared. I am scared I’m not good enough. I make so many mistakes and I don’t always do the right thing. How could he call me to do something so incredible. I have doubted that God has called me, when he could have chosen so many other people.
BUT that is not true. That is fear talking, doubt spreading, and mistakes consuming me. I am not perfect and I am not meant to be. My mistakes have given me growth and knowledge.
Knowledge that God can use to help someone. I wonder why God called me to this, I am not perfect but no one is perfect. He called us to be DIFFERENT. He called us to follow his word and to live by it. He called us to love him, to love our selves and to have unconditional love for others. It is not always easy being a follower of Christ. We always have a war within us, it is between our old self and our new self. Between the person we once where, the person that didn’t care about God and our new born self, born from the holy spirit. Sometimes I think, “Am I really worth it” but then I realize that is a slap in the face to God. God knew we were worth it, he sent his son to die such an excruciating death. Thinking that I am not worth it, is like questioning if God did the right thing. Sometimes I don’t understand how he could have done what he did. I cant imagine how it was for him, how much love is he has for us. How can I ever feel unloved. I shouldn’t questioned why God has placed me here or if his plans will prevail. He already said, “ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future'” in Jeremiah 29:11. I will place it all in his hands and not worry about it. I shouldn’t doubt if God will provide, he already has. He will open the right door and hearts to help me. Going back to Jesus’s death, I remember it didn’t end there. He raised him up from the dead three days later. He did something considered impossible, if he can do that, why should I doubt he can do marvelous thing in my life, the life of anyone. There is a love so unconditional and pure, why should I feel worthless. I am the daughter of a great king, then why should I feel weak and powerless. I may not be qualified but God doesn’t call the qualified, he qualifies the call.
