Hello friends, supporters, and awesome people who have read and kept up with my blog!
So we’re back in America. It has been a whirlwind of things, from seeing family, friends, going back to work and just doing day to day life things. While it has been incredibly joyful in seeing everyone again, re-adjusting has been a little hard. at first I was confused and couldn’t understand why I was having such a hard time, and then logic set in.
I moved every month for a year, to a different country, different culture, and different people. My heart is homesick for bits and pieces of 11 countries. I feel like I’m still going to move on to the next country soon, and my body is restless even though I know I’m not going anywhere.
I went from being in constant community 24/7 with our teammates to having a whole room to myself. Where ministry could have looked like anything. Where you are expected to suddenly share your testimony in front of a church or sit with a woman who’s husband beats her and tell her that Jesus loves her. I now go to work, have a regular schedule, and a paycheck. I’ve learned all of these skills, some which are not currently applicable, but they are there and ready.
Sometimes I will be in a conversation and in the middle of it have flashbacks to walking down the bar streets in Thailand, and the things that we saw. My favorite flashbacks are of our squad worshipping together.
So what does all of this mean? It means I’m right where I should be. It is a process, and each day does get easier. I’m exactly where God wants me right now, and that’s enough for me. He shows up in each day with little blessings from those around me to devotions that pop up in my email, to our time in worship together, to any way he wants to talk to me in this season. He holds each of us in his hands so closely.
So on to the next step. I’ve felt the Lord leading me into squad leading a gap year route with adventures in missions. I don’t know the exact details yet, but when I do I will give more information. Right now I’m focusing on paying debt, painting, and just spending time at home. Thanks so much for the prayers and well wishes home!
