Surprise Me God

My family can definitely attest to this for me, I’ve never liked surprises. When it came time for my birthday  presents I liked to see the gifts, pick them out, show them to my family and basically watch them being wrapped. For Christmas if I didn’t know what one of my gifts was I would try to open the wrapping in a way where I wouldn’t be surprised when I actually opened the gifts.  I just wanted to make sure they were the things I wanted and would like. And how else would I be able to do that unless I knew, right?

                                                                   (Robyn, me, and Anna- right before ministry in the bars in Thailand)

I’ve been convicted of how this has been rooted in my relationship with God. I have said to God I don’t really like surprises, so why don’t you just give me hints and show me just a bit so I can make sure it is what I want? Or God will reveal a bit of a promise He has in store for me and if I cannot completely understand it, I say I don’t want a part of that if I cannot fully understand it myself.

(Girls from the bars in Thailand- we took them bowling)

I need faith like a child and I need to learn how to live out the trust I read of in the Bible. Right now I have no idea what God has planned for my future, and God is changing my heart to be ok with that. God has asked me, “Do you really trust me?” And so I am walking day by day in asking to learn more about trust and to enjoy the surprises that God will have for me along the way.  Because I want to fall more and more in love with a man that I have never seen, I desire a faith that consists of walking not by sight, and I want to be at peace and rest with not knowing.

I have memorized since I was a young girl Proverbs 3:5-6 but God is teaching me what it truly means to walk out my trusting in only HIM.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and HE WILL make your paths straight.”

 

So I’m learning to say surprise me God!