My biggest pet peeve is when others are not being genuine.

Sometimes I sit and just talk with God and I become speechless. I want to say things but then I wonder if I room to say anything at all, I mean who am I to say anything? He’s God. And I wonder if wrestling with God is telling him I don’t trust him. Or is it me just being honest?

(Some of the children with MediKa Mamaba. Haiti Feb. 2009)

There are times when I feel that I should be saying, “I trust Him, and He holds the world in His hand” no matters the circumstance. But there are times when I just want to tell God that I don’t understand, I am wrestling and chewing on a few things and I don’t want to say the “Christian answer”.

We can know his character and believe in who He is and still not understand. Recently I think about Haiti and the horrendous earthquake that just occurred killing an estimated 500,000 lives. I read a statement written by a friend saying, “Our security is not in what God is doing but in who He is.” A family member responded saying the earthquake in Haiti is an example of why she doesn’t believe in a God who could allow that to happen, and how it makes it that much easier for her with circumstances like the earthquake.

Raw honesty.

(Cannan Orphanage, Haiti February 2009)

God let us come with brutal honesty before you, because we are man and you are God. And we do not understand your ways nor your thoughts.

                It is hard to believe that about a year ago I was just a few hours outside of Porta Prince, Haiti. Once again I do not understand it all and maybe times like this make you more confused or wonder if God is really seeing all that happens. But please take 60 seconds and pray for Haiti.

I wonder if God has a pet peeve of loving genuine & honest hearts.