Well as soon as I signed up for the World race they told me to expect the unexpected. I kind of just pushed that to the side. I never thought Change would take place in my World race experience… Wow can I just start off by saying I was so wrong… SO Wrong.
One week before I went to training camp, we got a email asking if anyone would switch squads.. Ya like move from a group of people I knew to a group of people I didn’t know… At all. There were so many people going on the WR they had to make a whole new squad and needed ppl. Needless to say I closed the email as soon as I got it and said No way. 2 Minutes later I opened it again because I knew I was suppose to change! I’m the type of person that plays it safe. Stays comfortable. I WOULD NEVER change to a different squad a week before training camp. Long story short, God spoke to me so clear that I needed to take this step and change squads. So 4 days before Training camp I was now a member of C SQUAD not B squad.
Without a doubt I am suppose to be on C squad. I love C squad. So I mean stepping out isn’t so bad right!?!?
Here is the NEW news:
At training Camp I got put on a team with 2 boys and 4 girls. Ill be honest when I first found out who my team was, I was a little sick. hahah! I probably talked to 2 of the people that was put on my team throughout the week of Training camp. One of our leaders asked us to choose a number from 1 to 5, then hold up that amount of fingers to say how we felt about our team. I picked 4 but wanted to pick 2.
Fast forward one day… We had a team outing and it was awesome. I would say my number probably went to about a 3 or 4 by then. We then had to pick a name for our team. We named our team Crisco, because Crisco is greasy, and christos in Greek means anointed, oily (hence Jesus Christ, the Anointed One), and there was a sense that there would be some powerful healing and restoration happening in and through our team. (thanks for this write out Chelsea G hahah)
Long story Short, I love Team Crisco. I would not have wanted a different team if I had to choose the people out my self. The number is 1 million! From 1 to 5 I choose a million! We have got to know each other so good over the past two months and I LOVE them.
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So some stuff has happened between TC and today. One of our members got pulled from our team because they felt she would be a great leader. Which is 100% true. She prayed and felt it was right so she left our team. It was sad but We had peace. Then one of our team members got really sick. We stood as a team and claimed healing. Sometimes in life we don’t understand why things happen and might not until we meet Jesus but Unfortunately He had to withdraw from the race. This left our group with 4 people.
To be honest I was nervous. The thought that they might split us up made me so anxious. Like up till late thinking about it anxious. I was praying they would keep team Crisco together still. I just thought we were meant to be ya know? I would of changed teams in a heart beat when I found out my team at Training camp.. BUt today I wouldn’t trade team Crisco for any other one.
Heres the thing. My plans are not always God’s plans. Things I think are so perfect and called together by him sometimes are not. I really sometimes do not Get things.. But I trust God 100% in everything.
Over the past months God has been teaching me that I CAN NOT rely on People to bring me happiness. Yes friends are good but if I rely on them more than Jesus.. I automatically fail.
4 days ago I got a email from my Mentor on the WR. It said they would be splitting up team Crisco. The 4 remaining people on my team would go to all different teams. Ohhh man. Lets be honest. I cried like a baby. I was angry, I was bitter, I took my feelings out on the people around me. I mean what was I CHOP liver. What, they thought they could just split our team up like we meant nothing to each other. I told you I was gonna be honest with you guys! hahah. OK I know they prayed about the decision but I didn’t want to hear it.
I knew when I was experiencing these emotions of basically HATE it was not good. I knew I shouldn’t be acting like that but I did anyways. I was being selfish and that was not ok.
I asked people to pray for me because I could not shake the feeling. I had basically cried a freaking river and they kept coming.. emotions IM telling ya! YOU guys by the evening I received the email I had never felt so much peace. I was feeling good. I mean yes I am sad IM not with team Crisco.. I love Kori, Michelle and Toni so much that I felt my heart break when I wasn’t gonna be with them, BUT I feel awesome about my new team.
Even today.. I know God’s plan is perfect.. I Still might not see WHY things happen the way they do but man do I know it is suppose to be this way.
So I would love to introduce you to my NEW team: Homeward Bound. I do not know them very well yet but I Love them so much already. From the bottom of my heart I am excited to serve with them! Stacie, Deborah, Margaret, Cait, Laura and Carly! 6 awesome ladies 🙂 I give them the number Million to hahah! They have been nothing but accepting, encouraging and just Awesome with the whole situation.
In all this God is teaching me that change is ok, change is Good. He knows best, not ME and that is GOOD NEWS!
I leave in 2 weeks to head out to the nations! Ready or not IM going.
Love, Robyn
John 14:27
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
