Today is my day off and as I sit here writing these words in a Cambodia coffee shop I find that my soul is aching once again. With each new breath I find myself that much closer to death. My life seems to be slowly ebbing away and with each exhale I am reminded just how fleeting my life really is. Nothing else seems to matter anymore except the Christ.
My soul isn't aching for myself, it is aching for those around me. When I die I'm positively certain that I'll find myself in Paradise surrounded by the fullness of His glory. But what about them? What about those whose sins are not atoned for by the blood of The Lamb? With each passing second as they offer sacrifices to their mute idols they are that much closer to an eternity separated from the Presence of the Almighty and they don't even know it. They don't even know.
What about those back home that don't know The Lord? My soul aches. As humans we tend to live our lives as though they would go on forever but that couldn't be further from the truth. Death is around the corner for each and every person and once its done its done. Christ is the ONLY security. If you don't have Christ there is no happily ever after.
My soul is aching for these people. I find myself constantly waking up in the middle of the night to a pitch black room crying out for His Presence. I have to tell them about His love, without it I won't be able to sleep. I have felt the absence of His Presence before and I don't wish that on anyone. It's hell, it's literally hell, the absence of His glory. I want to throw up.
I look at the Cross and am reminded of a steadfast love that endures forever. I am comforted but nauseous all at the same time. He is longing for these people to turn to Him.
I have to tell the world of this salvation by grace because nothing else matters.
Life is short eternity is not, share His love today.
-Robert
