Let Me Be Real

This is my heart.

I am in my second month now in Australia and I am in a new state
of humility and brokenness. It seems like the last few years of my life I am
consistent in these, but this is truly new.

I am completely humbled that the Lord has placed me where I
stand today, that His love never fails, that He never left me in my own hopelessness,
self-pity, self-centeredness, etc; and that He still…. STILL whispered hope and
love to me. 

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Today was awesome with some of my teams at the beach. I just
needed rest. I seriously believe the last time I was really alone for more than
an hour was a few days before Christmas…maybe.  So, I took a trip on a train to just sit with God-and honestly
to really rest in Him.

I love how I just can sit in His lap and just chill- He is
cool like that. My Abba!

On the train, I reflected on many conversations from
different people on the squad- amazing and difficult ones. I smile, cry, laugh,
and rejoice that I am being blessed beyond measure to witness the power of
Christ bringing new freedom to areas that have been held captive from the enemy… I pray hardcore and realize how much love
and hope I have for them and how awesome it is to just see Christ radiating
uniquely through each one.

I am praying that I will become even more of a man who
reflects the attributes of Christ daily. That each day I spend here-the Love that I
share and give would represent that of Christ, that the Joy would be a complete
representation of the Christ in me, and that my Hope for this squad in becoming
men and women who WALK in COMPLETE FREEDOM and become FIRE BREATHERS for the
KINGDOM OF GOD would FLOW out of my soul and burn in theirs…. and that I would
never forget where He has brought me from…that His love endures.  

That is that… I just believe in them. So, thanks for
believing in me and always supporting me…your love and support with the power
of Christ has brought me here today! You are all rock stars! For realz…